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[crownless]

"Yo, it's Travis. You know the drill..."

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[crownless]

Ah. I get it.

[at least somebody's getting some around here

]

Yashiki, you sly fuckin' dog...

1/3

[reimaginedself]

[ He, at first, breathes out a sigh of relief -- ]

[reimaginedself]

[ Travis stopped talking?? Why?? Silence??

Hello????? ]

[reimaginedself]

[ He panics. ]

Nope, no.

I'm not sly at all.

[crownless]

[so coolly and casually:]

He was your first guy, wasn't he.

1/3

[reimaginedself]

[ He could hang up. He could hang up at any time and pretend he never had this conversation! ]

[reimaginedself]

[ But without talking to Travis, without talking to Kirk, he wouldn't have been able to figure out how to discuss things properly with Mashita.

Even if Kirk says it is his own bravery, he really owes them a lot for figuratively holding his hand while he panicked on what to do.

Usually, he does the impulsive thing, but when it comes to matters of the heart, he hems and haws. He's certain that he'd convince himself to give up completely... ]

3/4

[reimaginedself]

[ Still a question like that is still such a huge goddamn hurdle to answer?! ]

4/5

[reimaginedself]

[ Actually, how should he answer that? ]

[reimaginedself]

[ Uh. ]

Yes, but it went fine.

[ NAILED IT. ]

[crownless]

Sorry. Congrats for getting some, but that's kinda personal, huh...

[YEAH IT SURE IS TRAVIS??? But since Yashiki's been willing to be vulnerable with him, it's Travis' turn to get a little awkward about it in return.]

I, uh, never really got that sorta vibe from you, so I assumed you were like me, with... [He trails off.] Never mind, forget it. Good for you, dude.

1/?

[reimaginedself]

[ He just weakly laughs at first.

Yashiki blinks a little at what Travis said. Vibe? What vibe? ]

[reimaginedself]

[ Like him?

Yashiki feels more question marks start to erupt over his head. With?

He tries to piece together what it is that Travis is trying to tell him. ]

[reimaginedself]

[ Did he like me and want to confess to me?! ]

[reimaginedself]

[ No, no. Not at all. That's definitely something in an anime and wouldn't happen. ]

[reimaginedself]

[ Score one for still having a low self esteem. ]

[reimaginedself]

[ Then, what? ]

[reimaginedself]

[ I haven't said anything for a really long time. ]

[reimaginedself]

I'm sorry!

I'm still here!

[reimaginedself]

I just was worried about what you weren't saying...

[ A pause. ]

It sounded kind of important... and I want to be there for you, too...

/end

[reimaginedself]

Is that all right?

[crownless]

[THIS IS THE WORST. DID HE OFFEND HIM, HE'S REALLY SWEATING ON THE OTHER END OF THE LINE HERE, so he's just gonna come right out and say it!! In one breath.]

I'm saying I also like guys and I've only ever been with one too so you can't really tell I do either but now I feel like an asshole for judging you!!

[WHEEZE]

N-- never mind! It doesn't matter! We're gonna talk about you again!

[reimaginedself]

Is that... is that like that saying game recognizes game?

[ DID HE USE THE PHRASE RIGHT? DID HE? ]

And, anyway, you still are kind and helped me so don't feel like too much of an asshole.

[crownless]

I think it's the opposite. [No game recognizing no game...] But whatever. You're, uh, the only person here who knows that, so-- yeah. Thanks.

[It feels good to get it out, but he's jumping back on topic so he doesn't feel like dying from embarrassment anymore.]

So are you and Mashita an item now? I think I only ran into him, like, once... If you're dating or something it'd be nice to meet the guy at some point. [Since Yashiki cares about him and all, it's the least he can do!!]

1/2

[reimaginedself]

... thank you for trusting me with something so precious.

[ Those words come out without his meaning, but he is somewhat grateful that Travis trusts him that much. ]